A challenge has presented itself. The challenge is self control. There are a lot of things in my life i have little or no control over, one of them, and the most important one of them is myself. 

I try to create routines to better myself, but it doesn’t seam to work out at all. Perhaps is because I try to do it all at the same time instead of working on every problem individually. I’m trying to make small, yet consecutive changes. Such as, well…I hate doing dishes!!!!!!!!!!!!! Every time i cooked I’m just so turned off by the action of cleaning the dishes. I would just leave them there soaking for days. Nasty I know, but its my thing. But i am proud to say that for the past week there has not been one dirty dish in my sink. Why?, well my little change was forcing myself to clean the dishes after using them. I know it sounds logical and simple, but whenever i was cooking and had to wait for something to finish coking I would get bored. The minute that would happen I would go watch tv or go on the computer to kill time. Well I don’t do that anymore. I actually force myself to clean dishes with the thought in my head being “stop being such a pig!” What can I say, it works, for now at least. 

Another small change is actually one that’s going to be huge in the end. I have a challenging project in my hands right now. I am in charge of sewing the costumes for an upcoming theatre production. the challenge is that the show had to be pushed back a month. This means I currently have four weeks to build a twenty character play all by myself. Did i mention is in the Italian Renaissance and I’m doing it from scratch? Im very lazy when it comes to building building costumes because I know its a long, and tedious process. But I am happy to say that I’ve scared my self to so much with the possibility of no finishing in time that im three days into the building process and have actually finished three costumes. I would rather have no life for a month than let people down. This is how I’ve been able to get over this bad habit. This is not about just me, there are a lot of other people involved here, and we all depend on each other. This about the collective, not the individual. It actually works.

Im on my way to better myself in order to be proud of myself and happy. My only dream in life is just that happiness. So far so good.

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